What made you stop being an addict?

So I thought had unlocked a new potential in life. I was doing it even if I don't feel the urge. I forced the urge to come by watching pornography.

Do I wake up everyday with lots of energy? No but that's because I have a health problem, which is a story for another day.

I saw every girl or woman as a sex object including kid girls. There was no way I would look at a woman and not think of f*cking her.

What defines the k'vanna of the Book of בראשית?

It didn't feel great after ejaculating but hey, who cares about feelings?

So I'm still hanging on this lie.

I just finished watching the best of the best p*rn videos on the planet. Now there's nothing else to look for on p*rn sites again.

What are some ballbusting stories?

I started rubbing it and I liked how I was feeling so I kept on doing it faster and EUREKA, sperms came out of my dick.

Around age 9 I discovered pornography through my uncle, he had left the CD in the video player in the night after enjoying himself.

I did it in my room. I did it in my washroom. I did it in school in the washrooms.

What would happen if the Soviet Union had simply annexed Manchuria after World War 2 or kept it independent as a puppet state allied them and separate from China as China was too weak too oppose it anyway?

I did it while watching my sister. I did it while touching my sister 😭 I did it while watching my landlord's daughter.

So all I had to do was to find a way to trick my dirty brain to think that p*rn isn't nice.

I made sure I downloaded every video that was nice for me. This took almost the whole day.

What is a narcissist grandmother like, with her grandchild?

There were times I was counting the days when I'm clean. But now I don't, because I got tired of counting and relapsing and starting all over again.

I went on my favourite site and started scrolling through my favourite categories; petite girls, sleeping girls, Japanese girls, Japanese mom, Japanese wife, massage, forced, in the bus, gangb*ng, Muslim girls, ebony, student and teacher, in the classroom, curvy, African, etc

And I DID IT EVERYDAY

What is a good habit and what is bad one?

And I can also talk to them now.

I didn't even start counting the days because I didn't really believe I would get this far.

Now how do you quit your addiction?

What do you think of Hegseth calling The Atlantic journalist Jeffrey Goldberg, "a deceitful and highly discredited so-called journalist who has made a profession of peddling hoaxes” after team Trump texted him their top-secret war plans on Yemen?

Was quitting worth the effort? At least for my mental health, it's a billion times worth it.

Just keep trying

But for me, I would say RUN away from it

Trump is going to target known criminals in the country illegally for deportation. The Democrats have vowed to fight him every step of the way. Don't they understand this is one of the issues that cost them the white house, the house and senate?

All I knew was that, I couldn't masturbate without p*rn. I was first getting the urge to watch p*rn, while watching, I would now feel like masturbating.

I secretly kept on watching and watching until I got 19. At this time, I had started feeling the urge to ejaculate as I was watching the pornography.

This was February 2019.

What movies have not aged well?

I always wished they would sit inappropriately or the wind would blow up their dress so I can see things.

But how was I going to do it when everything I knew wasn't working? I didn't know

Now I don't wait to be talked to before I respond. I talk when I think I'm supposed to.

Why do so many people find Kakashi's character so appealing and inspirational?

I got tired of always breaking the promises I made to myself.

Is masturbation and p*rn bad?

The harder I tried, the worse it became. I could get angry with myself and go about 3 days without it but when I relapse, I can do 3 in a day. And the subsequent days; it's just me getting drowned in the rabbit hole.

Why don’t Jews regard Jesus as an important teacher or rabbi, if not the Messiah? Putting aside messianic claims, wouldn’t Jesus be one of the most significant Jewish teachers in human history?

I knew something had to be done about my wasting existence because if nothing changes, then nothing changes.

Oh, and everyday I woke up tired 😫 I never slept early too. My mental health was nothing to write home about.

A couple of months later I started hating it and regretting after every session. Yet, I couldn't stop.

How can I get my ex-husband to love me again?

I so badly wanted to f*uk a girl, yet I was so shy of girls. I never wanted to meet anyone. I always wanted to hide behind the phone and text.

I know some people masturbate and they don't have the problems I went through.

I knew about masturbation but I didn't actually think of doing it but one day, on my bed when I was preparing to go to school I was watching pornography and something just came in mind; why don't you rob your dick with your hand?

What disturbed you today?

RUN 🏃‍♂️ for your dear life

I did it in my administrator's office.

I don't know if all addictions are like this 🤔

Do you think that drug addiction is a symptom of larger societal ills? What is it about our culture that leaves so many feeling like they're inadequate, trying any ill to find a cure?

Have I stopped seeing girls as sex objects? Not entirely, I still want to f*ck some of them.

Read that again ☝️

I went there early in the morning trying to watch a movie and I found the CD inside the video player so I decided to watch what was on it and that was the beginning of the life I never wanted.

Have husbands and wives ever had a threesome with someone in real life? How did it happen?

And these were just the act and not the mental and social problems associated with addiction.

Now I have the mental fortitude to face life's every day battles.

Now I know I have all the nice videos on my phone, the rest I don't have, are not nice. So I had to start watching them one after the other. Some of them were even 2 hours long but I made sure I watched every little bit of it.

How does someone start doing urban exploration?

There were times I could go 3 months without watching p*rn or masturbating but somehow I always came back to it.

Remember, if nothing changes, nothing changes.

Am I totally free? I don't know 😕

I remember sitting on the bed and smiling and that was when it hit me that I have successfully masturbated.

It took me days to finish watching them. Finally I decided to go to the washroom to do The Last Fap.

No self esteem. No confidence. No ambition. Just dreams.

I remember I once did it in my classroom at dawn. I did it in the hospital's washrooms. I did it in the lab where I work; both daytime and midnight.